the truth is we need to imagine better to do better.

i believe i can make my purpose into weaving new narratives, new imaginings and being a storyteller to shape new ideas. i can give birth to things that may help future generations find a way out of this pig sty. i believe in moving away from believing in things that don't serve most humans. i can do this, i will find a way. there are people who need me to speak my truth, for example. so that they too may find their way.

enjoy where you are at now.

 be here, be present, love all that you do each day, fall in love with your practices and personhood again. get back to you, not all that isn't there. there's life in the here and now. no matter what feelings come up, they will dissolve again. be intentional with finding joy and pleasure. i can do this, for i can measure my success. 

I love who I see, looking at me, in the mirror; in the mirror.

Sigrid's new song is in my head a lot since I heard it last Fri. I keep being called to speak my truth, I don't know how or when or who to, or how any opportunities to are going to be made to come up, but hey ho. Maybe it's just to create words and actually share them into the world again via spoken poetry or writings. Idk. Time will make it clearer, I hope.

there is hope in these bones.

i'm tired from brief lakes trip so i'll keep it brief. i feel a whole new life is coming for me. i just gotta stay calm and patient and i'm deciding to drastically cut back on social media so i can focus on what my inner being is pulling me toward right now. keep all in mind, maybe even try many things. do it, for the time is now.

i'm glad i got to catch up with A, even though I feel even more out of place. i've decided not to be with 'it' anymore, and i've been drifting miles since the pandemic began, but even before then really. i got to help give advice on his girl trouble. i got to watch almost two fear street movies. i got to watch a movie with angelina jolie called Taking Lives. I'm so thankful and blessed to have gone for a picnic by the lake, and adventurous me loved climbing the gate, paddling in the water in my sandals, all the food. 

i really needed that, and i feel a little renewed.

i am in control of my breath, i am in control of my life.

i refuse to go backwards, i am in charge of my breath - i will not get out of control because i am in charge of my direction and the next choices i make. i am nearly ready, action is coming, i just need to focus on meditation/mindfulness/being out in nature until the intuition kicks in.

i am worthy, i am deserving, i am enough.

everything i'm going through is temporary. i am going to find my way. i will find new people if i've left others behind. i trust in nature, i am going to immerse myself in nature, in being in my body, in loving on myself and caring on myself so much. i will try my best to eat well. rest and sleep well. i have got this.

this one is just for existing.

you don't have to do anything or choose anything just now just because you want to get a move on. health is important, figuring out the next move from within is important. take your time, go slowly, tend to yourself.

vulval

i am wildness, i am flowers. i am nature, and in her power.
i create myself and my life, i don't waste any more time in letting is pass by.

i am about to embark upon something new, i do not know what. but i choose change, flow, being.

i go within, because that's where my source is. i am, i am, i am.