There is real joy and peace in doing absolutely nothing. I loved having a very quiet Christmas, and judging by everything I have been told about their time in London; it was just more of the same bs that I didn't miss out on! Life spared me and preserved my calm state. I was surprised to be messaged by many a friend, and even had two phone conversations. I had rich and tasty food treats, overindulged on sugar and just chilled out on the sofa watching movies and TV. I went out for a walk and there were people out and around, one man fixing Christmas lights on his shrub plant, some people bringing things in and out of their cars. An elderly couple - the woman with a walking stick walking around. I enjoyed seeing all of the pretty lights, hearing the birds and taking in the calm and cool atmosphere. Today's walk was refreshing with rain, and one guy who lives around the corner and down the street wished me a Merry Christmas and asked if I was on a post Christmas walk. It was nice to hear a human voice today. And I'm thankful that Rich asked if I'm okay last night.
Whatever feelings are coming up and trying to process, and will hopefully be released. Old confusion, and knowing I can now receive love no matter what happened anyway. And I care for myself and love myself a lot too.
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