you're not alone in all this, you're not alone i promise.

 i needed to integrate some painful things about my past and my reality alone. i don't believe i will be alone. i can feel and see myself being supported, held, loved and some of my needs met with the right others. it'll just take time and patience to get there.

for now, i focus on the joy in the small. the way the light hits the trees and the dew drops on them. the birdsong, the squirrel that comes visiting and digging up his stash a lil. i am blessed with these lil things, and doing inktober is fun.

made spinach soup just in time for my period, i have pizza in store for tomorrow - and a mini g bread to try! i am thankful for moving my body this morning, and now i get to rest during this time. i enjoy the time i have alone this week and i look forward to good things to come.