i've been dreaming of the bedroom my younger self would have wanted, and going back to wanting to be a child and being looked after by someone for a while - because i never really got that. i know i've been able to re-parent and nurture myself a lot, but humans are social animals and lockdown is just making me crave being cared for even more. it's a part of my process of healing, going back to the parts i wasn't ready for last summer. i emptied a lot of my top shelf in my cupboard and found the poetry books i used to absolutely love as a kid, as well as other books, and rhymes and stories as well. i found the dinosaur poem i was obsessed with!! i had a couple of hours of fun just going through everything from my very young childhood right up to college and a little bit of uni stuff. i'm gonna process all of this, nurture myself in the ways i can - get creative again with the poetry books and write my own again! and do some stitching and painting (which i had already planned for this month anyway.) i am lucky i am able to do this.
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