i hurt with grief. grief seeps into every part of me.

i don't know how time is going to help me letting go. i don't know why i have to let go of everyone and everything. i don't know what for. do i trade the little safety i have when i've never felt truly safe long term anywhere else? i don't know how to find my community anymore. i need people. i need this grief to not be so big. i need renewal. a better perspective.