happiness belonged to the far off future.

actually, in the acceptance workshop with Jova, i got back to holding my feels and am going to attempt full and deep rest. my body is already giving me signs i need it, i think i've got a head cold and it's very annoying. i want to then get back into writing short stories and maybe poetry. life waits for no one, dad's talking about taking a holiday somewhere (i'm guessing in spring or summer???) so hinted to me. somewhere nearer, like Spain to get some sunshine. choices, things to think about. will has also asked to meet up again, he caught the c around christmas. i just want to pauseeee.