i wanna be gentle and soften, open up my vulnerabilities again.

i keep feeling stressed and tired. maybe it's 'cause it's supposed to be my period from tomorrow. i hope things will be alright soon, i love it when i don't have stomach pain and feel refreshed from sleep. r has ditched me from the writer's that she invited herself to in the first place. then i'll do some shopping and come home and rest and binge tv and cancel again on ash. he's been really cool about stuff, that's how i know he's the direction i need to go. but at a good pace for me.