staaaaaahp eating meh stuffs.

what is underlying my urge to take a bite out of everything unhealthy? forget about me deserving better, my body deserves better. i can feel a well of sadness ready to burst up; maybe it's just pre-period feels, maybe it's grief or feels on the changes forthcoming. tomorrow is the first full week with mum home. since the first day she's been home, she's been a lil disruptive. i have to be on eggshells around her. she closes doors with a shove all of the time, today - v nearly on me/my face. she leaves her mess everywhere, has always done so. leaves the tv on all day when nowhere near it. yet anytime i'm away or leave my stuff for 5 mins (to go eat, to the loo etc) she's always on at me. usual double standards. today she had a small spat with dad. i am tired of all of the unhealthiness here. it isn't helping me. it's like going backwards.