glad i got to complete the expressive writing course. george was a lovely accompaniment, and at least gaynor tried, and it was reassuring with claire there. just wish amy had been able to make it. or gill. rahila left it off on a positive note. helped me think about activism in a different way. george helped that too. talked on loneliness, wanting closer friends, the age of social media - what rahila said hit the heart. she was like, "one click of an x and that's it, you're out." like yep, someone should have told me this long ago. i think rich warped my sense of connectedness. i still miss him though. despite the breadcrumbing, coming in and out whenever he wanted, the lack of clarity etc.
anyway, i want to live like the bedouins; i've always felt nomadic. i told claire about the board games meet at the library, so hopefully she'll make it - she said she wants to get out and about and in life more.
we are more than our obstacles. life is magic.
i do hope rich figures stuff out and comes back. but it's only a little wish/hope/dream. he was as good as family .. even though he didn't want me to know him.
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