i am showing up differently for me. i become what i've always needed.

it's worth trying peer support stuff, but really i'm on my own. i need to try and fill me up before i can give back to others. made spicy butternut squash soup today. paul passed away on thursday night. no one really wants to chat to me on friday social's but they're okay chatting in general. i won the quiz this week and i also did a one on one session with dance. i'm really exhausted and just need sleep. i think brett broke up with kathryn in august at some point. i miss rich but i'm not going backwards in life. i will find the people i need.