loads of people's shadows are floating about. it started w knowing the mother chucked out my bowl. then slammed doors and heating argument. then it brought out unsavoury aspects of him, and me, and then i had a tough week last week even around the dance fitness class and opening up. this week i turned things around, leaned into healing and i spent a lot of time out and being productive last week anyway. sun charged and ready for something new. i'm being pulled towards these women, i'm scared about everything changing so rapidly. i go slowly, i go with my breath. i remember in each moment i can choose differently, i can focus back on my health again. i am being supported by life. i am brave and vulnerable, soft and strong. been invited to the women's dance fitness whatsapp groups, i'm witnessing the behaviours of those around me. the mother acts neutral when she wants something. dad takes out unaddressed emotions on an innocent guy just tryna get through his day of work. i am healed beyond them, and rich. and pj was a step in the right direction but i always will find bits of the familiar. i just trust myself and what i want and need more now over people pleasing and staying small and quiet in order to survive.
nature is grounding. speaking my truth is empowering. i can do this.
remember, schedule!
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