i planted some seeds in a garden that will become two trees i will never see.

i felt super connected to life by planting five trees (several types) on wednesday. i was nervous, and it was my first time meeting the rest of her dance group, and i had a nice lil chat and the women at the back of the bus kept on offering me different foods and i didn't take anything but they insisted on giving me a sweet. and then chatting to the people of the charity was amazing. and i got blessed with the sun, i loved my body getting stuck right in and aching after. then i'm glad i got rest and then meeting with chris after two years. even though it was brief cos he was more interested in getting to his destination. it is what it is. old time feels came flooding back as mother's behaviours came back a lil and i spent time with them watching a quiet place 2. i wish i could talk to rich like i used to.