old life coming around again

she tried to chuck out my stuff again, without even saying. this time i specifically asked her what was in the bags, she just said it was her old papers. i didn't trust her one bit after last week, pouring out my clothes on her bed to r and saying don't let her see, keep it a secret while i walked in. so, i went out and found my school and college stuff in bin liners (true, there was a pamphlet on infertility in there too which was hers) but ya know, unsurprising. she's done this my entire life and she still thinks it's okay. she's been itching for my attention since i stopped even saying a word to her since last sunday's incident. she wanted that fight. i just waited until dad got home and explained what happened to him. he was not happy with her either. but yeah, maybe life's just giving me an opportunity to go through my past. she told me the buffy mags were still in the attic somewhere when she put them there when i was 16, but i'm not sure whether she was lying. she's lied to me about every small or big thing since i was 5, that i know of. and i've never trusted her since.