the world isn't as it was, i'm also not how i was.

change, it broke me open and now i'm on the threshold of all new. or i'm supposed to turn it into something new; not go back being pulled into old patterns.

met up with ash yesterday, casual normal boring convo; but i got to try the toffee hot choc from tim horton's. then i opened my b'day gift from him -- not chocolates, but a fxcking phone! samsung galaxy z flip 3. so not okay, i am going to have to do the harsh realistic convo next time i see him. 

but we did go walking in alexandra park - it's beautiful there.

today, i got to watch a few movies and inner me so needed that. i miss rich though, he is the one i want truly. just an open and willing rich, who communicates. i hope one day.