i release rich as part of the older guy syndrome who turned out to be insecure and childish and self focused, much like my own emotionally stunted / immature parent/s. life is about seeking the new, the things that make me more comfy to be me. safe spaces with more aligned people. i gotta try.
i forgot today that it would be the last time i see T before xmas and i didn't take her anything. dad says Happy ny's card and chocs will do before the end of the year when we next meet. i'm not so sure.
but ayurveda was good, and i contributed using my voice even though i said i was unsure about my answer but ppl were supportive and nice. and then mum ended up being 10 mins late for some reason, even though she was nearly out the door when we were.
they've gone to her uncle's funeral that's tomorrow and they'll return in the evening. meanwhile, ash is in a hotel room somewhere in stockport so we can go bradford tomorrow to see van gogh alive. onto new things, even though it's bitterly cold, i have to get up early tomorrow and don't really wanna go.
lean into the discomfort, lil one.
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